Living Out Your Salvation

"Holy living is not only the refraining from doing the wrong and the doing of the right, but an insatiable desire for God's will that can only be put in the heart by the Holy Spirit, manifesting our true sincerity by glorifying Him through obedience." Chas. E. Orr - Ps 42:1, Php 2:12, 1Thes 1:7, 1Jn 2:4, Num 15:30


I wish I would ask myself more often "does my life read as a letter from God or as a memo of my intentions?" when i hear people say that God doesn't make us His puppets I always wish He WOULD make me one so that the cares of this world wouldn't effect my decisions, making so many of them hypocritical. If I want to be "so heavenly minded that I'm MORE earthly good" why don't I?

I once heard that ALL sin is based in self-centeredness. so I started thinking about all the kinds of sin (even seemingly benign character flaws) and I couldn't find one that didn't have it's root cause in "self". In the garden satan appealed to Eve's ego ("you will be like God"), and then second-guessing God ("did He say...?)is really our way of getting around His authority so we can do what WE want. ME! That's the only desire of a newborn baby, to learn how to get what he wants. His parents have to gradually tame his selfishness throughout his childhood. Teaching his will to submit to authority not only prepares him to avoid horrible consequences in a lawful society, in the workforce, in a marriage..., but prepares his heart to submit to the Holy Spirit when He convicts him to repent and continues to convict him to live out his salvation, thus avoiding more horrible consequences.

I definitely don't have enough "fear and trembling" when living out my salvation, or as the amplified version says "...reverence and awe, serious caution" Php 2:12. We all have a human nature, that tendency to quench what we know is right in favor of our own desires. For some it is a stronger personal trial than it is for others. In chapter 7 of Romans Paul tells of his battle with "self will" even though he was a more determined and courageous warrior. As impossible as it seems God wants us to set Himself as our goal (1Pet 1:15-16), not so we'll feel defeated and overwhelmed, but exhorted and enthusiastic to please Him (1 Cor 9:24). God doesn't give us what we can't handle, it's just that a lot of times I don't want to step out of my comfort zone or quench my tendency for self-pity, in order to decrease ME and show God's power in my life. -Jn 3:30-31. when Paul asked "who will set me free from this body of death?", I feel so connected to that expression of shame. He knew the answer though, that battle won't be forever, but realizing our inadequacies teach us to rely more on a loving Father's daily grace. He gave us a gift when He captured us. A shared hatred for the sin in those He loves. Hatred for sin stirs our heart for obedience, and at least some level of growth, in spite of our numerous shortcomings. So, if a thirst for obedience is not manifest in your life....you know what scripture says about a faith without works (the obedience from the heart)? The book of James has a lot to say about that.
If we all could just be rid of ourselves and live like this earth is not our home! As much as we want to be His puppets, He would rather have our struggling push that reinforces our love. We are on a Pilgrimage, ambassadors for Him. It's hard to keep all these ties in perspective but when we return to our forever home, this life we have built for ourselves will be like a blink. What really mattered will be what is there with Him.